That little bit of hope is fading away, I feel like there's no point in hope any more. Maybe it's for the better especially after what you told me and I told you last night. Hmm, yeah

Everything feels a wee bit better, not totally though. :/
Yeah, nah it doesn't, i lied. I still hold to that little bit hope that there can still be a us, although. I wish you did too. :'(

Lol [:/]

So . . . . . Where to start. Okay, here goes. At first I was jealous, Nah JK. The whole time I jealous. I wished it was me there not him. I know half the time wishes don't come true, and neither do dreams.
Here's a quote from last night " I wished on many shooting stars for us to really be together for ever. But wishes are wishes and dreams are dreams. Dreams will stay wishes, and wishes will stay dreams. Until we all really decide on what we want. "
So yup.
I think I over trusted you, so I've decided to put up these walls. Walls that feel un-natural. I don't like being stuck inside a box, but meh what has to be done has to be done. I've also become all insecure around girls. Not one's that I know, one's that I like. I've also picked up a bad habbit lately. Trollolololololol. A habbit i'm not exactly proud of, but no one has to know what it is, except the one's that all ready know.
I told you I really missed you. I didn't lie about that, nope not one bit. There's something else I want to tell you too, but I have no idea how to bring it up, and I know that you probably don't feel the same way at all.
So yeah. LoL

o_o

On the surface everything's fine, but 3 months on I still have feelings for you, STRONG ONES. 
The night of your ball is tonight, you gave me the option of going with you, but we both agreed it's better not. I sorta regret that decision now, although I know you're happy with the person you're taking (or so you've told me). Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I have no idea what to say :/

:)

I love you. Not maybe, not tomorrow, not someday, right now. At this very moment. I realized something. I need you, I trust you, I admire you. I want you. And you can be wrong a lot of the time, and we can fight, and get mad at each other, but nothing, nothing in this world can change the fact that I love you :)

Okay, so last night i waited up for you, I don't mind, and I fell asleep txting you. I'm sorry.
I've figured out what I want, for now. I just wish you felt what I feel, but I know, Life doesn't work that way, neither do feelings. I really hope that they do end up the same. But yeah, once again, they may not and then I will hopefully get these feelings past me, and I can move on, be happy again.
Mhm yup

._.

I don't really know how to put what i want to say into words, It just doesn't seem to come out right.

:D

Yeah, so tonight we finally won our first basketball game 53-52, a wins a win.
I don't understand how when you ask someone a question they don't you it back, maybe it's cause they're just trying to not be disappointed :/ hmmm anyway, idc really. Have a good night

-.-

Okay, well yeah, i'm sick of what you're doing, I've just had enough. It hurts, that's the truth. There's other people that i should be worrying about, and caring about, falling in love with. Yeah, ah yeah, i'm just sick of it. Sorry

Yup, sure

So right now i'm completely confused :/ about everything. Fucken hate being a teen GAAAAAAHHHHHH

O.o

Perfection is not the answer. Nothing is perfect, neither are you, and you never can be. The best you can do is be yourself, if they don't love you for who you are, and what you have they can get FCUEKD. So i don't think you should put yourself through it anymore, if it's meant to be they'll want you back, if it's not don't try and force it. I hate seeing you sad cause your normally all bubbly, but yeah. You need to do what's best for you.

If you make sense of this. Well done

Okay, so you come round, well ish. Anyway, you came round and yeah, we hugged and yeah, umm. Things happened that i didn't expect, good, positive things. They're making me think. Deeply. Umm, yes. We should hang out soon, REALLY SOON, Like Friday maybe? Seeing as you're not working Sunday :/ I wanna see you, and talk things through, and yeah, hang out, see where it leads too. Ahh . . . I'm sorry for everything, but that's behind us now. Ummm, FARK, Umm. MY MINDS RACING. Yeah, There's things that i want to tell you, but i don't know how to put it into words, or if you feel the same :/ I hope you do :/ I realized a lot of stuff tonight after seeing you, and hugging you. I'm not gonna put it on here cause you know what it is. Ummm yeah, i sorta give up, I'm going to bed. Kswt :D ILY 

No Title Kswt

We're getting close again. Talking a lot, i like it, but not what comes with it. Memories.Those have to be the hardest things to cope with :/ I feel like i'm falling for you again. I do and i don't want that to happen, Positive, Negative. I think that all though I say that I don't want you back, deep down in my heart I do :), ): If we had a 3rd chance i'd snatch it up and try by best to be who I am, treat you as I always did, and even better. That message I sent you the other night, you took 3 reads for it to sink in, well, 3 reads that you told me of, idk how many times you read it that day, if you did :/ You still mean quite a lot to me c: ILY you know who you are :D. I hope I can see you tonight, if not, i apologize in advance <3

The Other Day

So, the other day I told the girl that i like that i liked her . . . Yeah, didn't work that great, she wont talk to me and we're really awkward, we don't talk as much anymore, we don't hang out, we don't just, yeah :/ . So umm yeah, idk what to really say :/ ah, umm . . . .

Her . . .

I admire from afar, not really wanting anything to happen, i just like it when you look at me, and i smile at you, and you smile back. You have such a pretty smile :). But the thing that's even more beautiful is your eye's, crystal blue, and they're glazed sorta ish (not in a stoner way). They're most pretty when the sun shines on them. I wrote about them in english when we had to do creative writing, and you guessed straight away that they were your's :D, you liked what i wrote too. Hehe. I wish we talked more, you fun to talk too. I liked that time we had a conversation on a piece of paper, t'was like 2 whole pages and you got annoyed that i was distracting you :P but it didn't stop you :D. You're so beautiful, just in general. Your hair (when it's curled) looks so soft and yeah, just yeah, your beautiful and i wish i could tell you. But we all have dreams and if i did you'd probably just take it as another complement from all the other guys. Meh, who cares.